New Direction!

It has been awhile since I've made daily postings on this blog. I created this site to keep others informed while I progressed through chemo, radiation and surgery... I had promised to end my writings after my surgery and hospital stay as I had considered myself cured and moving forward, even though I had another round of chemo to complete. I felt that if I had kept writing... I would never let go of me disease.. If I claimed it I owned it and therefore I tossed it from my life and continued on..

I've learned a lot along the way..about myself, the supportive nature of the people around me..about the chemo, radiation and the surgery..and am continuing to learn more every day.

I've lived with the pain of surgery, the nausea of chemo, chemo brain, neuropathy..the fatigue of the radiation.. The disappointment of learning there was more treatment to follow.

Most important though is that I've learned to "Live" through the process. Yes initially I was knocked off track. But I have learned to accept my present state and lead my life..live my life..push forward with my goals and aspirations..

I've learned that there is a distinct difference between being fit and being healthy. I've always been fit..always lead a healthy lifestyle.. Don't smoke, don't drink. Eat clean..

But something was missing. Cancer was growing..spreading.. Maybe laying dormant for years. Was it genetics, lifestyle, environmental..who knows. I didn't fit into the risk categories for esophageal cancer.

So it's taken me some time to find a purpose through this. Taken some time to evaluate my present state and find a direction relating to my journey and I think maybe I can help others.. help them cope.. help them maintain dignity and strength.

So stick with me as more will follow..I'm not totally there yet but I'm formulating a plan..a road map for others to follow so If you know anyone in need.. information maybe.. someone to bounce things off of. Please let me know.

My treatment is ending soon however I'm ready to put myself out there to help others.

For those of you that do not know me yet.. take some time to read through my blog. Yes some, if not all, may be a little boring for you however.. it will give you some perspective of what I have gone through and maybe I can be of some help to others.

This blog was initially created to help others follow in my journey..maybe now is the time to lead others in their journey.